I Come For The Beer and The Bitches

Thu, 04 May 2006 20:26:25 GMT

the things you do that make you just wanna shoot yourself in the foot. im good at doing things to that effect. but thats me and thats how i am. ive been doing a whole heaping load of thinking as of late. so many questions asked, and so few answers. are we right, or are we wrong. im desprate. so much uncertainty. i dont like the feeling. not that i am by any means one who who sets goals or knows what i am gonna do in 10 minutes, but the rest of my days were looking so bright. now im blank. i seem to do this to myself about every other year it seems since i have had this journal. i talk to it when i have no one to talk to. i dont know what to do currently. never been this confused in a long time. i could talk about all the happy things that have happend to me in the past prolly over a year since i have last updated. but i find it all irrelevent. cause its past and what good is a past if you have no future. who no i have no answers, i dont know much about life, love or really anything. but i do know that when they say change is good, im not sure if i agree with it. my lease on my current apartment is up on July 5th. what to do. should i finally just walk away from it all as i was going to ages ago and move to detroit? should i stay in the same never ending circle of jobs, and apartments. same people same faces. nothing will change unless i force change upon myslelf. all we do is live to make money so we can pay bills for things that make us superficially happy, when the real things in life that make me and any semi sane person happy come free of charge. Friends, Family, Significant others. those are the things in life that make you a truely happy person. without it, its all so fake. im fake. these past days i have had a big face of stessfree happiness at work and at home. was i trying to make it reality? yes, but its not working. its starting to fade. that face is begining to crack. im really truely lost. im rambling about the most unclear and stupid things right now to avoid the truth of what i miss. i miss my danielly, and that is what is making this so hard. i need a friend, someone to listen and not judge. i made lots of mistakes. many unforgivable. and i know its done, and the realization, is what kills me the most. all the things around me reminding me. from my room to my car to clothes. i need out, i need answers, but most of all i need to go. livejournal is not the place for my rants and plees. goodbye world.

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 23:02:22 GMT

well i really think that 2 whole months is long enough to go with out at least some kind of an update. well, LIFE you ask. i dont think could be going much better. new apartment, great girlfriend, new job its all good. im not so sure that i miss this thing or not. i mean i used to update all the time. who knows, it goes in spurts. i have been thinking about updating for like the past couple months, but i just dont. meh i am know. went to the casino a week ago walked away with 900 so that was extremely cool. winning money is good. hmm other good things that have happened. prom, prom was great. i must say no bullshit just good fun. i actually enjoyed it. i was a good time me and danielle and the loads of crazy gangsters in the limo with us. that was just to much to handle. me and danielley drove to Alma to go and buy her a new puppy Sammie. he is a great doggie. what else is there. who know ummm...me and danielle have almost been going out for 3 months. crazy. it all seems so surreal. its nice. i lover her a lot. ummm i got a new tattoo that was fun i went to liquid tattoo. i think that i wanna go and get another one within about a week or so. i miss it alot. i wanna finish a lot of this stuff up. who knows tho. i work all the time, and crazy amounts of hours. i will now be working 2 jobs, from 7am and then get out of both jobs at 10pm. its gonna be crazy. i know i will be able to do it. i am a hard worker. plus the money will be great. lol

hmmm some things to think about...i have been moved out now for almost 8 months, and besides not seeing my family i can say that i am not sure that i miss the place. do you blam me? but all in all, it is not as tough as they say, you just wanna have to do it. its nice. but i think that after this lease is up next june, i am going to just leave. go away to college. 4 years just do it. do something with my life. it will be good. who knows me and marcus might actually do what we actually wanted to do, move to North Carolina and go to college. wouldnt that be crazy. you never know tho. we will see in one year. but hopefully it will be off to GrandValley, that wouldnt be so bad would it? i dont think so. i think we could do it. no promises tho. i dont wanna make anymore proimises that i cant keep.

life may not be all i imagined it to be at 18, 3 months away from 19, 1 year out of high school, but more importantly above all things, i can honestly and truly say that i am happy. happy with everything. its nice, things are well. how are you? need to chat 803 9193

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 18:43:45 GMT

gahh my fucking throat hurts. so damn bad i am way pissed. it sucks. so me and danielley are doing really well just to let all of you know. went and got a nice big bed yesterday. that wosnt cheap for all of that stuff. but oh well at least i am gonna get good use out of it. man i feel poopy. one week until we get to move into the new apartment i am pretty excited about that. its gonna be nice. then also next week, well on friday i am going to get some of my tattoos colored really excited about that as well. lots to look forward to in the coming weeks. danielley asked me to go to her senior prom with her. i hope its a lot of fun for her. but i dont know. i feel like poop. i need to go back to sleep or something. i dont know. well i hope you all have beatiful days.

AMITY (warped tour band from cali)
HIT THE LIGHTS
FACES OF VALOR
NURAL (from cali)

all on Purevolume.com

all to be playing at the red ribbon hall
MAY 12th $5 Doors 6:30

hope to see you all there

...i wanna kiss you every minute every hour everyday!

Tue, 12 Apr 2005 17:01:49 GMT

well well well...what a good weekend it was! i finally got to see my lovely danielly! i had to work on friday night and i wosnt supposed to get out till 3. and then it was gonna be off to danielly's, but i got out way early. and i got ready and then called her when i was in her driveway, and told her to come outside cause i had a surprise for her. and it was me standing there with a dozen roses. gosh is was so great to see her. and i finally got to lay down and cuddle with her that night. it was amazing. then we both woke up bright and early and were on our way to cleveland, where we seen fall out boy. they rocked the house. it was a really good show. after the show we went to the harry buffalo for some food. and then went to the hotel. i dont need to get into details there. but it was a good night. came home on sunday and we went ther her aunts house for some BBQ thingy. it was some good food. then i took her to her dad's house all the way at duck lake to get her car back.all and all it was a most wonderful weekend. oh yea not to mention on thursday me and matt went and seen straylight run in detroit. it was a good show. really really good show.

so in about two weeks i have to have a new apartment...yay... not. oh well tho. its gonna be alright. i really want some more tats, it has been so long since i have gotten one. like way too long. well kids time for me to go do some laundry...bye

Mon, 04 Apr 2005 09:00:25 GMT

and ill be just fine pretending im not, that far from lonely and thats all that ive got.

hmm...damn i miss her so much. its so crazy to think about how much you can actually fall for someone, or well i dont know just really honestly care about a person. i like it. i miss it. its what i need. a week is such a short time, and yet it feels as tho an eternity is passing as i wait for you to be in my arms. i dont mean to ramble on about this. but it is all that is on my mind. yes, i am drunk, but it is all i think about everyday and night. scary. hmm i dont know at least she is with the great egg foo young. i trust her. they are so close. im glad she has someone like that even tho she lives in chicago. hmm anyway i have worked a crazy amount this week i couldnt believe it. oh well tho its just more money for me i guess. i have an interview in kalamazoo for the target distribution center there, and if i get that jpb it pays 13.99 an hour. which would be absolutly fucking amazing. if i got that job i would go on a spending spree no doubt.

so thursday straylight run. cant wait. me and jimmie and annie seen them like 2 summers ago. and it was amazing, so i cant wait to see them now. and then on saturday me and matt and danielley and felicia are going to see fall out boy in cleveland and staying in some hotel rooms there. thats gonna be fun. get drunk, have some "fun" and then come back to dull michigan.

i cant say that i really have much else to say. night.

p.s. new cell 803 9193 call me damn it!

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 21:02:50 GMT

Everybody's Free To Wear Sunscreen - Mary Schmich

Ladies and gentlemen of the class of '97:

Wear sunscreen.

If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it.
The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists,
whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my
own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now.

Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will
not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've
faded. But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself
and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay
before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as
you imagine.

Don't worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as
effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble
gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never
crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 p.m. on
some idle Tuesday.

Do one thing every day that scares you.

Sing.

Don't be reckless with other people's hearts. Don't put up with people
who are reckless with yours.

Floss.

Don't waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you're ahead,
sometimes you're behind. The race is long and, in the end, it's only
with yourself.

Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults. If you
succeed in doing this, tell me how.

Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements.

Stretch.

Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life.
The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they
wanted to do with their lives. Some of the most interesting
40-year-olds I know still don't.

Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees. You'll miss them when
they're gone.

Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll have children,
maybe you won't. Maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the
funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do,
don't congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either. Your
choices are half chance. So are everybody else's.

Enjoy your body. Use it every way you can. Don't be afraid of it or of
what other people think of it. It's the greatest instrument you'll ever
own.

Dance, even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.

Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.

Do not read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly.

Get to know your parents. You never know when they'll be gone for
good. Be nice to your siblings. They're your best link to your past and
the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you
should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and
lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people
who knew you when you were young.

Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard. Live in
Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft. Travel.

Accept certain inalienable truths: Prices will rise. Politicians will
philander. You, too, will get old. And when you do, you'll fantasize that
when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble
and children respected their elders.

Respect your elders.

Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust
fund. Maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when
either one might run out.

Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you're 40 it will look
85.

Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who
supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of
fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly
parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.

But trust me on the sunscreen.

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 14:20:52 GMT

hmmm well, i just got back from danielley's and im not gonna see her for a week. im gonna miss her. its ok tho. she is having fun with her friends. so thats cool. it was a great night last night. last one for a week. hmmm...so tired. work at 5. gah...i am having the worst time trying to update. whatever. kinda pissed i was gonna go skating this morning in frandor but it fucking rained last night. that kinda pissed me off. my damn ear hurts. i streched them to 00. but only the left one hurts. well shit i really just am at a loss. i cant think. k bye

and id stand there like a soldier....

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 13:51:11 GMT

i finally got my phone yay! took me long enough to get off my ass and do it. lol so my number is 803-9193. call whenever you please. but anywho. not much has been going on i just work and then go to my lovely daniellies house. its really nice. i really enjoy being with her. we have such great talks at night. mmmm awesome. but yea. no need to go on about that. i bought a new telecaster about a week ago now. that was fun. lol it sounds so nice. i really like, but i am wondering if i really actually need it. oh well. i dont know i am really tired tho, still not used to getting up early like all of you kids yet. k bye

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 10:34:41 GMT

drunk. so many things that seem so far out of my reach. and yet i feel they are ever closer than they have been. thinking of the past, relationships, friends, family, everything. so many things in perspective in my mind. maybe it is just the alcohol talking, but just so many things i have thought about. i miss my uncle...i wish that the fucking bastard that killed him was never fucking born. i hope that one day i will see him face to face so that i might have the chance to fucking let him feel just one little fucking ounce of the pain that i have been feeling for the past 7 years. if i was able to take the life of anyone, it would be that man. i hate, and despise that man. how could someone take a life of a man that fucking helped you. made your life easier, and then just say i am gonna end your life cause i ask for something in return for all that i have done for you? i wish that i would see him just for a second that is all it would take i would give my life just to see that man die. i feel bad i have been to my uncles grave once since his funeral and it was last year. i couldnt even deal with it then. 18 years old and i fucking still cried uncontrollably. like a little fucking baby. i hate the feeling of helplessness. i wish that i could be strong and not think about this. but yet at the same time i feel guilty if i dont think about it, i mean i owe it to my uncle. to remember him. i loved him so much....i dont know....fucked up thats all it is. relationships, how are you supposed to fall in love with someone after you think that you found the one person that was your "true love". i want to know. is it wrong to have more than one...? i wish i knew the answers. i wish that life was much more easy than it is. i find myself afraid to want to love again....and even then when i think that it will happen again i have that fucking thought in my mind, that the same thing will happen again. as much as i know you arent the person that will do that, i am still scared. scared for a larger change. being with you is amazing, i cherish every moment. lying in bed next to you. learning the little things about you that make you special to me. so many thing that i wnat to say, but i dont know how. understand what i mean when i say it!

the sheets are calling my name...no danielle but for one night i will live. night to all.

Mon, 21 Mar 2005 15:34:17 GMT

wakey wakey...eggs n bacey! lol hmmm what a great week this has been. i love meeting people that you totally click with. absolulty amazing. well things have been so good. and it feels so good to be able to finally say that and mean it. i dont know lots of things going on in my head and its all so so good. danielle is so amazing it just well i dont know. but things are good. i dont really know how to put it. i guess i just "need her like a bad habit" and thats that. wow this entry is seriously taking forever. maybe its cause i am drinking jack and cokes, and eating the "jello" that i made for danielle last night! mmm good night.very good night. damn it i am so blank right now well not really i just dont know how to put all of it on here. oh well. i guess i will just go at that. laterz

Wed, 16 Mar 2005 08:30:35 GMT

mmm drinky drinky!!! how nice it is...i miss it...not really but i havent been drunk much lately. so i am hanging out with danielle tomorrow at like 10:30! i cant wait.. she is so awesome. then i have to work tomorrow shit! oh well i just wanna bang...lol hmmm fall out boy in cleveland on the 9th and msi on the 16th. cant wait oh and dont forget finch and vendetta red on the 23. thats gonna be a fucking SAweet month. damn it all i want more fucking tattos this shit pisses me off. i just need to go and fucking get more and say fuckevery thing. oh well. im drunk and i am writing some mad music. have a fanfuckingtabulous night fuckers. BYE

Tue, 15 Mar 2005 16:21:13 GMT

well...just got home from work how awesome is it, when you go to work to sit down and chat with a lovely young lady that i met, and then dumb asses cant fuckin come so i have to fucking work...it really pisses me off. but whatever. anyway yea i met this really cool girl her name is danielle. and yea...lol really cool, she works at the diner that is like right next to the apartment.but yea i dont know, cool...lol i need to play guitar. peace the fuck out

Thu, 10 Mar 2005 10:12:53 GMT

journal oh how i missed you! damn it has been far to long since i have updated...i mean nothing exciting has happened to me, i just have worked and worked. i need money so terribly bad! i think that i am gonna go and get a second job. but oh well...just been thinking a lot. im not really sure if i like change. sometimes things were just so much easier and better for me before. i dont know tho. all things happen for a reason i guess. all is well, and i will survive. but sometimes, just what if...questions going though my mind. just dont know really what to do with them. i am going to see fall out boy and midtown on sunday at the Intersection in GR. that should be fun. i havent been to a concert in ages. damn it all...gosh i wish that sleep was a word that i knew better. yesterday was the first day that i actually had a real sleep it was odd. i dont know, worked a couple third shifts this past weekend really kicked my ass. not sleeping at all...GAH...oh well. am going to go and play some guitar now i think. i need to get away from this computer...damn ages of empires!!

night all and have splendid days...or not

Thu, 24 Feb 2005 17:43:42 GMT

LJ Friends Meme by coolerq

• You must tell 33 people about this game.
• Krisha Kay is the one that you love.
• Sammie is one you like but can't work out.
• You care most about Marc.
• Matt is the one who knows you very well.
• Jess is your lucky star.
• Brick is the song that matches with Krisha Kay.
• A Walk Through Hell is the song for Sammie.
• On My Own is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.
• and Ever So Sweet is the song telling you how you feel about life
Take this quiz

i really havent decided if i like those things...whatever...i need tattoos..bad...damn it all. fucking car. oh well i need a new one anyway. i cant wait to fianlly have a brand new car. gah whatever im fucking tired...15 hours of sleep just doesnt cut it i guess.

Fri, 18 Feb 2005 21:47:30 GMT

word people...damn it all, im fucking cold. i dont like to be cold. got some more tats. im not even gonna bother talking about them. too many to talk about and explain. just to much work to. lol i am really covering up my skin really fast tho. i like it. i am going back on monday. i have monday off as well. so that is cool. i actually got a decent number of days off this week, and still worked a lot i like that. i hate working bullshit 6 hour shifts its so pointless to me. oh well tho. work is work i guess. so i am relaly digging my new half stack. its pretty rockin. ive been playing a lot latley. i missed playin. ever since me and mary went out i just kinda stopped playing all the time. but i am back in the groove and its the shit. gah i dont know well i am not in the mod to keep typing. so i guess i will just update after work...peace out bitches.

Thu, 17 Feb 2005 12:11:16 GMT

YAY! im DRUNYRD!!! its fun!!! yay 5 hours until tattoo time how about FUCK YOU on the forehead. yay im kidding only kidding...

Thu, 17 Feb 2005 10:13:46 GMT

well TEAM....looks like its about that time again...no not time for tattoos thats in like 7 hours. as for now it looks like it is drinky time! yay for UV vodka!! :) well time to get to chuggin...be back later with the updates if i dont pass the fuck out!!!

FUCK OFF MUTHA FUCKAS

Sat, 12 Feb 2005 16:57:53 GMT

ahhh....its so fucking early...me need sweepy...*yawn*...well shit...tattoos=love and well thats about that...i got new stuff on wednesday...its hott shit. stopped by and showed mary, i think htat she likes it. pretty much the only person besides my rents and marc that have seen all of my stuff. so that was kinda cool havin someone else see it. i really like all of the stuff that i am getting tho. i am really filling up my skin pretty fast. its amazing how quickly i am. but i guess i would if i go everyweek. so yea, nothing new, cept everyone should come to the show on sunday. sea defeats sparrow, alucard, faces of valor, and the tease!!! its gonna be totally rockin. i know none of you have anything else to do on a sunday evening.well fuck. i think that i am just gonna go, i am to tired to really think let alone sit here and try and type. peace out fuckers

Wed, 09 Feb 2005 11:13:21 GMT

Mon, 07 Feb 2005 12:13:20 GMT

eh... so early...why am i up? well because i am emo and i cant get enough of dashboard right now...i have learned 5 of there songs tonite!!! fucking yay!!!thats awesome. and on wednesday...i am getting more tattoos...i got some on friday...i got the one on my left arm colored...i really like the way that i picked the colors...and then of course i got stuff done on my half sleeve i would say that i am 3/4 complete...really happy with the way that it is looking minus the bruising that i got from the stuff on my inner arm...but it was expected...of well. it didnt hurt like everyone said that it does. it didnt bother me at all. so that was cool too...but also kinda disappointing. oh well tho. i still have more to do. but i have a lot already. im not sure what all i am getting on wednesday...i think some panda bears and like some bamboo shit it is gonna be way hott when it is done...cant wait.i think that i am gonna try and get my sparrow or my star for my other arm then too...i dont know yet tho...whate=ver i get it will be a lot. i wanna try and get like 4 hours done everytime i go now like i did last time. i am realyl addicted to this...kinda expensive...but she said that she isnt gonna charge me as much anymore cause she said that i have given her enough money as it is...so that is way rockin. so less than a month until florida...or cali...we havent decided yet...its gonna be awesome tho. really cant wait.

Hands Down

Breathe in for luck, breathe in so deep, this air is blessed, you share with me
This night is wild, so calm and dull, these hearts they race from self control
Your legs are smooth, as they graze mine, we're doing fine, we're doing nothing at all

My hopes are so high, that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me, so I die happy?
My heart is yours to fill or burst, to break or bury,
Or wear as jewelery, which ever you prefer.

The words are hushed lets not get busted, just lay entwined here, undiscovered
Safe from the earth and all the stupid questions...
"Hey did you get some?" Man, that is so dumb.
Stay quiet, stay near, stay close they can't hear, so we can get some

My hopes are so high, that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me, so I die happy?
My heart is yours to fill or burst, to break or bury,
Or wear as jewelery, which ever you prefer.

Hands down this is the best day I ever remember
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo, the dim of the soft lights
The scent of your hair that you twirled in your fingers
And the time on the clock when we realized it's so late
And this walk that we shared together
The streets were wet, and the gate was locked so I jumped it, and let you in
And you stood at the door with your hands on my waist
And you kissed me like you meant it
And I knew that you meant it, that you meant it, that you meant it

Thu, 03 Feb 2005 17:13:41 GMT

what if ....
» I committed suicide:
» I said I liked you:
» I kissed you:
» I lived next door to you:
» I started smoking:
» I stole something:
» I was hospitalized:
» I ran away from home:
» I got into a fight and you weren't there:
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
» Personality:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Mannerisms:
» Family:
[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you adore me?
[13] Are we close?
[14] Emotionally, what stands out?
[15] Do you wish I was cooler?
[16] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[17] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[18] Am I loveable?
[19] How long have you known me?
[20] Describe me in one word.
[21] What was your first impression?
[22] Do you still think that way about me now?
[23] What do you think my weakness is?
[24] Do you think I'll get married?
[25] What about me makes you happy?
[26] What about me makes you sad?
[27] What reminds you of me?
[28] What's something you would change about me?
[29] How well do you know me?
[30] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[31] Do you think I would kill someone?
[32] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?

Wed, 02 Feb 2005 18:38:17 GMT

Take the quiz: "what kind of drug are you? (includes pictures)"

methamphetamine.
you are methamphetamine.being almost 5 times as strong as speed,it's obvious you like it fast.you rush through live, loving every second.

Tue, 01 Feb 2005 10:35:17 GMT

Big plans running through my head...money money money...cant wait...so much money to be had...and so many good bands to see...YAY! i cant wait to see Say Anything on March 3rd. its gonna be the shit. cant wait, man its so early to be babbling. lol. got my acoustic today, my rents came up to lansing and took me and marc out to breakfest. it was good and there was no fights. it was nice. then me and marc got hair cuts. he looks like he is 16 with his hair cut ha ha. yea i got my hair cut to. nothing drastic...back to old ways...just got the back whacked and thats about it.lol. shit i have to work at 12 today. what kind of crap is that? damn that is so close. damn it i want some fucking more tattoos...i miss it already, and i have only been one week removed actually almost 2. i took a week off... i figured i should. the whole everyweek thing might kill me lol. met this guy named nathan today, he is the lead singer to sea defeats sparrow. well he knew me apparently. but yea its cool got someone to chat with in class. he wants me to try and put on some shows by the MSU campus. i really wanna do it. there are some good bands that he has that wants to play with him...so yea you might just be seeing a lot more fliers up here.lol.well shit fuck...im wired as all hell and i really dont know what to say...hmmm how about...

fuck you...go cut yourself...bitch

Wed, 26 Jan 2005 11:18:28 GMT

and if i could swim i swim ou to you in the ocean swim out to where you were floatin in the dark....samm when i come over we are having a group sing me you and brandon...that was so much fun...

but yea i need to fix my car today. yay! its gonna be so much fun lemme tell you about it. its gonna be so cold out there. and to top all of that shit off my fucking credit card got all fucking jacked up. and blah blah blah. basically i have to get issued a new one. so that fucking sucks. but what do you do.

i want to get more tattoos. fuck i think about it a lot. call me what you want but damn i love em. i need to get my guitar any of them...i miss playing. but the rents house is so far away. everytime i drive home i almost fall asleep. its weird. like its not even that far i just am used to only having to drive like 2 miles a day. but whatever.

gosh i wish that sleep would come soon. i have a big day tomorrow. well not realyl its just gonna be long. but then again everyday is when you stay up till like 8am. oh well tho i think that i will live.

i got in a pretty big fight with my dad on the phone today. and when i talked to my mom it sounded like she was ready to cry which makes me sad. and i dont really know what to do. not much i can do i guess.

so yea i went to my class on monday...and holy fuck is the guy a fucking tard. my teach has no clue about anything. like he is smart in all. but he is just a tard. but at the same time he is cool. so it should make for an interesting symester.

dont really have much else to say...

Live Love Burn Die

Mon, 24 Jan 2005 21:17:18 GMT

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:

1. Jeff

2. Jeffrey

3. Jeffe/Jeffy

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:

1. Murdercityman

2. xOverRatedLushx

3. Gnarkilla321

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:

1. My tats

2. My lip

3. My hair

THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:

1. How trusting i am

2. How addicted i get to things

3. How work oriented i am

THREE THINGS YOU WISH YOU HAD RIGHT NOW:

1. more money

2. a real girlfriend

3. more sleep

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:

1. Mexican

2. Indian

3. German

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:

1. Rejection

2. Not succeeding

3. Being alone

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:

1. Internet

2. Car

3. Money

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:

1. Hoodie

2. Sweetpants

3. Socks

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS/ARTISTS AT PRESENT:

1. The Used

2. Hawthorne Heights

3. Dashboard Confessional

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:

1. To make $500 for SB playing poker with marc (we are at like $80 in 3 days)

2. A new tattoo artist

3. Buy a new car

THREE THINGS YOU NEED IN A RELATIONSHIP (love is a given):

1. Honesty

2. Communication

3. Family

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE:

1. I have my penis peirced

2. I am going to the marines

3. I Play Guitar

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE SAME SEX (or opposite) THAT APPEAL TO YOU:

1. Teeth

2. Butt

3. Lips

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:

1. Touch cotton balls

2. Be gay

3. Lick someones asshole/ eat a girl out on her period...(inside joke)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:

1. Playing Guitar

2. Pimpin da hoes

3. Being on the net

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:

1. see my lansing friends

2. make out with someone

3. get a huge pay check

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:

1. sex therapist

2. marriage counselor

3. who knows

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION

1. Jamaica

2. Australia

3. Europe

THREE KIDS NAMES

1. Jeffrey Scott

2. Joseph Allen

3. Tristen James

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:

1. Be a dad

2. Be in a kick ass band

3. Have a shit ton of money

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ... NOW! (OR DIE PAINFULLY)

1. Mary Elizabeth

2. Jessica Ann Arlene Olivia

3. Sammypooooo